My new Philosophy
Too many people are thinking of security instead of opportunity. They seem more afraid of life than death.
James F. Byrnes
I've been contemplating life lately, and I think that good old James Byrnes had it exactly right. Of course I have great dreams for myself, who doesn't? And that is fabulous! There is no end to the possibilities but I can't let myself get distracted with this issue of security. People are so caught up in security. Everyone wants to insure their future. They want to insure their relationships, and they want to guarantee that everything that happens in their little life will turn out exactly as they've orchestrated it. But, people who spend their whole life insuring their life instead of living it are in for a shock.
WHY? Why bother when everything tangible around us screams uncertainty and undependability.
As, Solomon so perfectly put it... "All is Vanity and striving after the wind."
God has been teaching me a very valuable lesson lately. Recently, a very dear friend of mine let me way down. It was a heavy blow indeed, but it made things that once were cloudy in my mind so clear. My friend should NOT have been able to let me down. There was no excuse to feel hurt. If I'd put my heart in the right place, instead of throwing it in the hands of this friend, there would've been no pain. Of course that doesn't ignore the fact that the other person needs to examine their own self and fix a few things, but nonetheless there is a much easier and healthier way to live. Dur, God's way. One night as I was reading the Psalms I suddenly realized what a fool I'd been.
This is what I read:
Psalm 118 1-9;19-21
Give thanks to the Lord for he is good; his love Endures forever.
Let Israel say: "His love endures forever." Let the house of Aaron now say: "His love endures forever." Let those who fear the Lord now say" "His love endures forever." In my anguish I cried to the Lord, and he answered by setting me free. The LORD is with me, I will not be afraid. What can man do to me? The Lord is with me' he is my helper. I will look in triumph on my enemies.
It is better to take refuge in the LORD than to trust in man.
It is better to take refuge in the LORD than to trust in princes.
Open for me the gates of righteousness; I will enter and give thanks to the LORD. This is the gate of the LORD through which the righteous shall enter. I will give you my thanks, for you answered me; you have become my salvation.
I encourage you to read the entire Psalm, it is phenomenal.
The lesson I learned from it was this: That it is better to take refuge in the Lord than in Men or in Princes. I can't be putting faith in people, I can't be putting my faith in my friends or my family or even the government. All that can be easily taken away and corrupted. I can't be putting my everything into the hands of something that wasn't designed to carry that responsibility. People were never made that way. They, WE, have no power at all, it's an illusion. Friends screw up. Family members can treat you like crap. Lord knows, the government is worst of all. Any person that walks this earth, cannot be fully depended upon for one simple reason: People DIE. We perish away. And before we die, we get caught up in a million and three sinful activities that distract us from any notion we may have of duty and trustworthiness and keeping our word to other people and all that other jazz.
Before you start to think that I'm about to hurl myself off the balcony outside in depression, let me assure you that coming to grips with reality has brought me an incredible sense of Joy in my daily life.
I know it sounds extremely trite but,
Don't worry so much about tomorrow.
-Jobs are lost
I always liked the way Ms. Frizzle said it in "The Magic School Bus"
"Take chances, make mistakes"
In the end, it's you and God, and a memory full of all the people you've loved and who've loved you.
Toss out any idea you have that you can "insure your life." You can't. You're on for the ride, just hold on grab each brilliant opportunity that comes your way.
Monday, December 29, 2003
My new Philosophy
Personal Survey for ---Christy Elisabeth Williams
WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? Oggi in Italia (Brushing up on my Italian)
WHAT WAS THE BEST MOVIE YOU SAW SO FAR IN THE THEATRE THIS YEAR? Return of the King... Hands Down.
WHAT WAS THE WORSE MOVE YOU SAW SO FAR IN THE THEATRE THIS YEAR? Johnny English. As much as I like Rowan Atkinson, I felt like the humor was forced upon me, plus at the time I was on a very unfortunate and horrid date with a very boring guy. Didn't help the atmosphere much I can promise you.
FAVORITE BOOK OF THE BIBLE? I love the Psalms for it's beauty and Ecclesiastes for it's Practicality.
FAVORITE MOVIE SOUNDTRACK? Couldn't say... the "You've Got Mail" and "I am Sam" soundtracks are pretty good.
WHAT DID YOU DO ON YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY? Nothing in particular actually.
WHO DO YOU TALK TO ON THE PHONE THE MOST? Prob. my Mom or Sister Betsy to tell the truth.
FUTURE SON'S NAMES: I'm not big on playing with the fate of my future children... I always thought I'd wait and decide later when I actually HAVE to.... However, I do favor names that end in "ley" and "tt."
FUTURE DAUGHTER'S NAMES: (refer to above)
NICKNAMES: krist, Chris, hey you, yo, Sweet Pea. My friend Claude started calling me Sweet Pea long ago and now my friend Vanessa continues the tradition. I love them both. My Sweet Pea-ers you might say... heh heh... oohh... that sounds not...cool.
FAVORITE FOODS? Italian, Chinese, and every sort of Chocolate.
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN OUTSIDE THE UNITED STATES? Not yet.
DO YOU LIKE TO DRIVE FAST? Most Certainly, and yet I have yet to get a single speeding ticket. Knock on Wood.
DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL? Most Certainly not.
WHAT DID YOU DO YESTERDAY? I'd like to take a moment to reflect on the stupidity of this question, and most survey questions for that matter. Do you really want me to go into the boring details of my yesterday? I think not. Instead Perhaps, you should ask me... what was the most exciting thing you did this month? THEN, then... my friend, I would have something a little more interesting to say. Sometimes I worry about the social health of whoever takes their precious time to think up insipid questions for insipid surveys. Which brings me to the imbeciles that take their own precious time to compete such surveys... Which brings me to myself, clearly therefore: I am an inbecile. Charming.
IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY JOB YOU WANTED WHAT WOULD IT BE? A Working Actress and Writer.
IF YOU COULD DYE YOUR HAIR ANY COLOR? No thanks. I'm quite content with my droll brown shade.
WHAT DO YOU ARGUE ABOUT A LOT: I make it a point to argue as little as possible, It's much better to say "I love you" and smile, and forget the whole thing. However, when I can't help it, I argue about stupid little things with my family (about life's little details that don't really matter).
WHO DO YOU HANG OUT WITH THE MOST: My Fab Family, Vanessa, Shannon, Robin, Church People, fellow actors, many others.
WHAT DID YOU DO TODAY: Here we go again..........
WHAT ACTOR AND ACTRESS WOULD YOU WANT TO MEET? Cate Blanchett!!! Gosh! I wish I could corner that woman and talk for hours, she's my favorite. And, I think Robert DeNiro or Johnny Depp.
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN LOVE? I've been spared that pain thus far.
ARE YOU AFRAID OF FLYING? Only if I was hanging on to a bird or something, not in a plane.
WHAT PEOPLE ARE YOU THE CLOSEST TOO? At the Moment I'm not around anyone, but 5 minutes ago Shannon was sitting next to me.
HAVE YOU CRIED THIS WEEK? Yes, I was showing David and Melissa how I could cry on an impulse. Something I've worked on for Acting. They totally bought it and as they watched the tears drop they were like: "Oh, no, What happened Christy??? Why are you crying?" Then I started laughing at the them and they were totally confused. Great fun.
WHO MAKES YOU LAUGH THE MOST? Conan O' Brien, he just gets to me man!
WHICH PEOPLE HAVE INFLUENCED YOUR LIFE THE MOST? All my dear family, Esp. Mom and Dad for their Character and Love. Amy and Betsy have made me Stronger, and Dave and Melissa have made me laugh. They've all taught me so much. I love em.
Tuesday, December 23, 2003
I've had some very odd dreams in my time, but last night I had the wierdest dream I must share it!
I was walking along (it was very windy) a busy shopping plaza place (it kind of reminded me of the Santa Monica 3rd Street Promenade actually), and then I crashed into this young man. Completely pushed him over on accident. I was very apologetic of course... saying "I'm sooo sorry, let me help you pick up your bags" and what not. I had this strange feeling that I'd seen him before, he looked like a celebrity but I couldn't place it. As I was fussing and apologizing and offering to make it up to him by buying him coffee or something... he goes (in a british accent) "oh no, it's fine don't worry," then he goes... actually if you really want to make it up to me, you can do so by giving me your phone number" [I have absolutely no idea why these sort of things are lingering in my mind to sneak up on me in my dreams at the dead of night, impossible... but it gets worse] then he introduces himself as "Dominic," and I go "oh, of course Lord of the rings" It was Dominic Monahan... Merry from Lord of the Rings.... ha ha... don't I have a strange mind? Anyhow, I'm like... um... well..um... thinking "Can this chap be trusted with my number???? hmm..." But I gave to him and later he called me in great need of a date to some awards show (can't remember exactly which one now). Maybe the sag awards or something.
I woke up and started laughing. I'd never even thought of the guy before, let alone dream about him.
very odd indeed.
But, my friend Christal thinks it's a prophecy, and made me promise that I'd invite her to the wedding. "Especially if Pippin (Billy Boyd) is there" she said. I suppose I'll have to keep that in mind now. ;)
Monday, December 22, 2003
Person of the Week
Every week is Jesus week, but this week let us especially think on Him as not only the most remarkable person ever, but as our triumphant God and King. His passion and humility are unfounded, they are so great. He is the bringer of peace and light, the most adored and yet the most scorned, the greatest and the lowest, the first and the last, the author and finisher, and the very savior and lover of my soul. He loves you and me inspite of our uglyness, inspite of our imperfection, in spite of our ill treatment of Him, and in spite of our ungratefulness and hate, he loved us and cherished us and calls us His own. I have no more words, only shame and love more than life itself for Him. I hope you can come to know Him Too.
Cheers and Merry Christmas
Christmas is my favorite day of the year! No other holiday is so self-less. The real idea of Christmas is the epitome of everything Christ came for. Jesus Christ, king of everything, magnificent and glorious, the most beautiful and adored being that exists, became a zigot. He became a zigot for you and for me. He took all His glory and majesty, and wrapped it up in dirty, ugly, human skin. Can you imagine the very humility of his birth? Poor Mary, giving birth to her first child in a disgusting, dirty stable that smelt of cow poop and who knows what else, amidst travelers who no doubt were coming and going to drop off their donkeys and horses. How public and embarrassing! Yet how perfect. God's glory is a terrifying and awesome thing, something to tremble about. Look at the Shepard's response when Christ's glory was revealed to them, they were petrified. But Christ took all that might and power and transformed himself into a soft, helpless, little fleshly thing. What sacrifice. What meekness. This Christmas, remember that. There is great power in humility, there is great glory in suffering, there is great honor in sacrifice. He has come. Rejoice! He is Emmanuel. He is with us.
Tuesday, December 16, 2003
Person of the Week
Last Thursday I attended a special screening of "Girl with a Pearl Earring" starring Colin Firth and Scarlett Johannson. They both were on hand afterwards to answer many questions and take many pictures . I wish I would have brought my camera then I could've posted proof that we met. ;) He is a lovely man with a fantastic sense of humor (very sarcastic) and he is an amazing and hard-working actor. He did impress me greatly. As much respect as I had for him previously, now he is nothing short of wonderful in my mind. And his performance in "Girl with a Pearl Earring" was just what the part needed, very tender, yet very strong. It's those "Mr. Darcy eyes" that really get to you. He speaks volumes with very little dialouge. It was a beautiful film and I highly recommend it. Go see it.... or at least go watch "Pride and Prejudice" again to appreciate this superb actor.
Here is the homepage for "Girl with the Pearl Earring"
Check out his filmography and bio at:
And here, as usual, are a few photos of the Man of the Hour- http://www.pemberley.com/photos/firth/hb.jpg
and with Rupert Everett in "The Importance of Being Earnest"-
Goodness gracious....... It's been forever since I've updated my little blog. Today is Monday and as it is my tradition.... I must offer you all a new person of the week. My decision today will not be difficult in the least. I'm actually very excited about sharing him with you. I met him last week, and almost felt like fainting at the sight of his beautiful face. If any man in Hollywood looks even better in real life than on film, I'm sure it is him. Extremely charming personality too.
Tonight, I go to see The Return of the King at 12:01. Very exciting. My friend Jami told me some things about the ending which he shouldn't have because I am making every effort not to be disappointed with the changes that were made to the book to create a great piece of cinema. The reviews have been promising however, so I look forward to this evening with much anticipation.
I've been in a very good mood this weekend because school is out of my mind permanently for the season. Thank God, I have made it through finals. Even a very treacherous Italian final, I feel victorious. ;)
Monday, December 01, 2003
Person of the Week:
This woman is my heroine this week because she represents a brave, accomplished, artistic, and beautiful person, who in spite of her time, helped to legitimize women as artists and at the same time help revolutionize the art world with a movement called Impressionism. Not only has her work inspired a new era in art history alongside some of her friends (such as Manet, Degas, Bazille, Renoir, and Monet), she has inspired many women around the world. I have viewed her paintings many times and seen her face in many art books but until today, I never put two and two together to realize who she was. I hope you find her as inspiring as I.
Edward Manet painted over 14 different portraits of Berthe. You can view some at:
I also found this photograph of her at:
Follow the links below to view some of Berthe's own paintings:
Find alot more about her by doing a search on Google and Google Images!
Wednesday, November 26, 2003
A Few Reflections For Thanksgiving
-A thankful heart is not only the greatest virtue, but the parent of all the other virtues.
Marcus Tullius Cicero
-Thank you, God, for this good life and forgive us if we do not love it enough.
-Let us be thankful for the fools. But for them the rest of us could not succeed.
-Nothing is more honorable than a grateful heart.
-If you suffer, thank God! -- it is a sure sign that you are alive.
-When I look at ugliness, I see beauty. When I am far from home, I see old friends. When there is noise, I hear a robin's song instead. When I am in a crowd, it is the mountain's peace I feel. In the winter of my sorrow, I remember the summer of my joy. In the nighttime of my loneliness, I breathe the day of my thanksgiving. But when the sadness spreads its blanket and that is what I see, I take my eyes to some high place until I find a reflection of what lies deep inside of me.
We Return for Return
Today there is the most marvelous wind whipping through Newport Beach. I took a trip down Pacific Coast Highway earlier to purchase my advance ticket for Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King. A tradition that cannot be forgotten is waiting in line at the Big Newport Theater in Fashion Island for the 1st Showing of each Lord of the Rings movie that comes out in December. For the past two consecutive years my old highschool classmates and I have been 2nd in a line that wraps around the block and this year is no exception. It is imperative that we remain second in line for this last and final year. The first year, with the Lord of the Rings We got there around 8:30 am and hung out all day for the 12:01 showing that night. The Second year a couple people in our group got there at 6:30 am, to ensure our spot. This year however, my friend Trevor, being the die hard fan that he is... is camping out the night before. I am confident that we will remain the ever present 2nd in-liners. Now, the two gentlemen who always first in line are so die hard, it's almost freaky. They drive out from Denver or somewhere like that just to see the films on the Newport Screen. Apparently, according to them anyway, The screen we see it on is the largest this side of the Mississippi. I'm prone not to question their credibility, especially since they are so impassioned by the concept. They drive out in their motor home a couple days before the big opening and campout. My group has actually come to like their presence in an odd way. It's almost like a family reunion every year or something. It would just be a crime if they weren't first in line, why, even if they got there too late and we made it to the first slot... no doubt about it that we would welcome them to cut in front of us. It's just the way things are. I had the opportunity to go to a preview show with Ian McKellen (Gandalf) guesting and talking about the film afterwards on December 5th, but I had to decide against going. How awful would it be to show up at the Big Newport Theater and already know how it ends? Well... I mean I already know how it ends because I've read the book, but it just wouldn't be the same. I'd feel like I'd betrayed my friends.
I just read the paragraph I just wrote...
I sound completely obsessed.
maybe I am..........
Monday, November 24, 2003
The Person of the Week:
I had the opportunity to go to a pre-screening of "In America" this weekend. It was an incredibly moving film (I must admit that I even wept at the end), which is carried by incredible performances and a heartwarming story. Following the film, there was a lengthy Q&A Session with the film's cast. I was incredibly impressed with Djimon. Not only is he an incredible actor with amazing emotional depth, his off screen personality was incredibly engaging and humorous, and he is very very very beautiful. :D
This is why he is my "Person of the Week."
Don't know who Djimon is? You may have seen him in films such as "Amistad," "Gladiator," or "The Four Feathers."
Check him out at:
Talk about Disturbing...
Today in Political Science we talked all about the Death Penalty. Captivating subject. Is it crooked that I am fascinated by the methods which are used to destroy someone's life? It's so interesting. My teacher, being the passionate Right-Winged conservative that he is, praised a Mr. Gary Gilmore of Utah for being one of the few that owned up to his crime, promptly and cheerfully requested death by firing squad, though the ACLU tried for a couple years to convince him that he really didn't want to die. Another disturbed individual we talked about was a man named Randy Kraft. An Orange County native, this homosexual serial killer was arrested in March 1983 and convicted of first sexually assaulting (by every possible method) then murdering 66 men. Yeah... 66 different men. He still sits on death row in California. Our appeals processes suck.